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Doctor's office called me, read several different stats and numbers from my bloodwork, and used the phrase "requires intervention". Uhhhh... That phrase has been kicking around in my head- do I need to be on vitamin D pills? Calcium pills? Something else entirely? A complete new diet ordered down from my doctor? So many questions, to be answered by my doc this morning. Color me frightened.

The apartment move is coming up in a week. I haven't packed anything at all. I'm thinking I'm being blocked by an inability to get past the fact that I have no eartly idea what the layout looks like. I've been shown 3 different apartment styles by 2 different ladies and told "yes, this is what this layout looks like", but the layouts on the site don't corroborate what they are saying. I'm nervous that Thursday when I go to sign papers, the apartment I think I'm getting will not be the apartment I get. I will be for a *WEEK*!

Work is getting hard. My dream job is being handed off to some intern. My new responsibilities involve talking to people outside of my department and consultants outside the company. Irrational fears stemming from Higgenbotham abound. Will I be knowledgeable enough not to get hung up on immediately by these people. Will I be successful in LETTING GO of all the processes I've created? Or will I fail spectacularly in all of these aspects and let my co-workers down by dissolving into a big, gelatinous, low-self-esteem-y goop on the floor?

Time will tell, I guess.

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Feb. 18th, 2010 01:07 pm (UTC)
the best advice I can give you is to remember to breathe... it may sound silly, however it has helped me innumerable times in this year alone
Feb. 18th, 2010 01:13 pm (UTC)
Thank you for the reminder! Breathing also helps the panic attacks I've occasionally had. Amazing how a concept so old and seemingly mundane can work like a charm, right?
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